Not Cool Man

I can't sleep, I keep thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking about. I feel like my life is meaningless. It revolves around work. It doesn't revolve around him, or me. It revolves around making sandwiches. How lame is that? I'm 19 and my life is going nowhere. It's upsetting that my boyfriend and I live together and we hardly talk to each other. He wakes up at 5:30am to get ready for work, I don't see him until around 2 so he can take me to work. Then he goes back to work, I get off of work at 10. We go home, he goes to sleep and I stay awake. I don't like this pattern at all. I feel like we're going to grow apart, I don't want that. I don't want to work at Subway anymore, too bad I didn't finish high school. I seriously suck at life. I need to start doing something with it or I'm going to go crazy. I don't like the way my mind works. I always think about the negative things, instead of the positive things in my life. I can't really think of anything positive right now. I hope things start getting better somehow. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I'm going to try and do something.