Stream of Reminders

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Chris Heads

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Manipulated Imagery

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By my boyfriend

Nice evening at the park

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"Don't go. I'll eat you up, I love you so."

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I Miss Her

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Our Home

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Taken a few months ago.

Andre Alcocer

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Taken a few months ago.
:)

Forever Until We Die

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No one will ever understand. It took eleven boxes of Dots to fill one up with only Strawberry ones. Oh how I love you Andre Alcocer.

The pictures are crappy, waaah.

Shrooms

2009-10-18T22:48:00.001-07:00

Last night was a crazy night, never again. Only with my him.

Everyone should go see Where The Wild Things Are on shrooms, but please have a person who is sober drive you home, so you won't be in a car for two hours trippin' out and wanting to die..

hahaha.

You live & learn.
:B

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Things will get better.<3

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I'm too young to feel this old.

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The end.

"Innocent smile, runnin' free"

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Charmed

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WAAAAAH!

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Had to sell my two ticket for The Sounds to one of my amigas for thirty bucks. I'm sad and a little depressed. Oh well, at least I'm still going to do some Shrooms and watch Where The Wild Things Are on Saturday, can't wait! A while ago I put the sound track to the movie on while my boyfriend and I did some love making, it was great. lol

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"Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone
Let me hear you
Speaking just for me
Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone
Let me hear you
Crying just for me"

Love Love Love HIM

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The Shins - New Slang

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Nail Polish Art #2

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Necklaces, Hats & Bags

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Precious Belongings

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Organized My Shoes

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There isn't very good lighting in my room!

MEEOOOW

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My boyfriend is a great model, he loves my new topshop beanie. >:p

The Future Alcocer Family!

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"Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close"

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The Sounds at House of Blues!

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So I bought two tickets to The Sounds for this Saturday, but I think I might have to work. It'll be so damn amazing if I go! Before the show my boyfriend, two friends and I are going to go watch Where The Wild Things Are on Shrooms, that should be loads of fun. Hopefully everything goes as planned!

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Two cups of milk each day starting... NOW!

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Dear, Mr. Pretty Man Voice

You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.
You're my everything. Your'e my everything. You're my everything.

Love Always,
Maria Cavazos

Yesterday's Bus Ride

2009-10-13T14:14:00.000-07:00

This place gives me the creeps.

This one does too!

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Happy Eleven Months

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Eleven I love you's for my lover.

Nail Polish Art

2009-10-13T13:59:00.001-07:00

lol I'm sure I'll get better?

Went bowling again with my lover.

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pretty water.

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Riding the bus to work is always fun when you've got nice weather, good music and Chex Mix Cheddar.

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Happy birthday to my madre!

2009-10-11T23:26:00.000-07:00

I took everyone out to eat at the Sam's Town buffet for my mama's birthday. It was a lot of fun. After my brother Raymond, his girl friend, Andre, and I went bowling. Here are some pictures, enjoy. :p

I love you.

Plate numero uno.

Andre and his mom, Claudia.

Jessica and my niece.

My brother and his family.

Jerry, my black bean brotha.

Oh, it is love.

Plate numero two.

I love my madre!

Plate numero three.

La family

We're missing my sister and my other brother!

:)

The whole family, except for the sixth guy.

Raymond, Jessica, Andre, and I went bowling after the buffet.

sippin' on some drank.

Handsome. Handsome. Handsome.

Best game I've ever bowled and lol at my brother's name.

My boyfriend's best game.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

LSD

2009-10-10T14:56:00.000-07:00

Last night my boyfriend, two of our friends and I took some LSD. It was my first time trying it and it opened my eyes. After we took it, we headed to The Strip. While we were there I started to notice little things. How everyone I looked at looked so shady and as if they were hiding something. I noticed that the trees weren't being taken care of. It's silly to say, but they looked so sad. Like they were prisenors, they were locked in little cages. They looked like animals. I really wanted to cry. Our city made me feel like shit. Everyone around me looked so pathetic, Stumbling or just creeping around. Then other thoughts started coming to me, why do I work so much? For this? For nothing? For money? Money is shit. If I had a choice I would go away with my boyfriend and live somewhere where there are no people, no televisions, no internet, no nothing. I don't need any of this. I felt so bad because my boyfriend already thought this way. Every morning I would wake him up for work and when he wouldn't want to wake up I would put him down and say he was lazy. He's not lazy, he's so strong and has a beautiful mind, body, soul. I love everything about him. We spent all night/morning in each others arms, moving to the sound of the music as if we were one. It probably sounds so lame to you, but I felt like we got married, nothing can come between us. It was so special to me, I've never felt like this before. The way we touched each other was so beautiful and it felt so right. He wrote this after waking up,

"In the earliest hours of this morning . . .

We exceeded the limits of the cosmological horizon, lowering ourselves into the depths of the none.

Come now, it's not too dark
We'll walk away, into the nothing
Our fearful aspects broken
Abandoning all hopes and past desires."

I know I suck at writing and wording things, but I just wanted to share this with the world. haha

IN-N-OUT Lovin'

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Holy Shit Fuck

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So I went to go see Paranormal Activity last night with my boyfriend, it's so good! If you haven't seen it yet, YOU MUST GO SEE IT! It's scary, but by the middle I kind of stopped getting scared just because I knew something scary was going to happen. The ending freaked me out though. I can't stop thinking about the movie, that's what the goverment wants, for us to be thinking about a stupid scary movie!!! Instead of more important things. I haven't been able to sleep comfortably, I won't shower right now because I'm alone. I've locked myself in my room. I turned on my christian music and I seriously told my mom to pray for me. Why? Because after my boyfriend and his mother left this morning I heard something humming in the next room. I wanted to fucking scream and cry... I feel a a little better now. I also had a very bad dream about something being in this house. WAAAAAAAAAAAHHH! Fuck, I wish I hadn't gone to see that movie. Another reason why I am so freaked out is because I know someone who is being followed by a "demon". That shit is real and it's funny how some people don't believe in it. I guess it's better if you don't. Then you won't be freaked out like me.

Paranormal Activity Tonight?

2009-10-08T12:17:00.000-07:00

Might go see this with my lover tonight, I'm going to shit my pants!

Elliott Smith - Between The Bars

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Rainbowman and Red Ruby

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Check out my friend's Flickr CLICK HERE:]

His son is so cute!

race to the edge of the world

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Spent a little time with Stripes today

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Meeting at 8am

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Most of my time is spent with these people. They're pretty awesome, even though sometimes they suck. One person wasn't able to make it, she had a doctors appointment.

She Wants Revenge

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Ahhhhh, I love them.
I wanted to post a different video, but stupid youtube wouldn't let me.

The clouds looked nice this morning

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6:30am

7:30am

8:30am

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Just because you have a nice camera, doesn't make you a photographer.

Evil

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Dance With Me

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Eat You Alive

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she is so captivating

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Fashion Q

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I never really liked the store Fashion Q for one reason,
1. The mexican girls who work there are never friendly and are very, very rude.

But today while I was walking home from T-mobile I stopped by for a quick look and ended up staying there for about an hour and a half. I had to search really hard to find the cute stuff, but oh man.. it was worth it! Everything was so cheap, so I ended up buying 2 shorts, a top, a flannel jacket, black jeans, and boots. I was on a budget, if I wasn't then I would've bought more. :p

Hope everyone has a great week!
:)

Starving Yourself Isn't Cute

2009-10-05T17:40:00.001-07:00

I love the way I look. I'm 5'4 and I weigh 110 pounds. I love walking around the house naked when no one's home and I admire my lovely curves. In the fashion world if you have fat on you it's disgusting, I think that's sad. I'd rather have me an IN-N-OUT burger and fries than starve myself.

Kohl's welcome to the ghetto!

2009-10-04T20:49:00.000-07:00

A Kohl's opened right across the street from where I live last week, I was so excited! I really needed to go for a walk today, so I headed over there. They have some pretty decent stuff. The Vera Wang and Apt. 9 designs were the only things that really caught my attention. I seriously have to go back when I get paid!

I bought the cardigan above, it's so comfy.

I have to buy this Vera Wang dress! I loved it.

I also bought a very lovely Vera Wang necklace, I'll post a picture of it when I wear it with something cute. :)

Well, I hope everyone had a great weekend!

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no one will ever love me, the way I love me.

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sniff sniff

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feelin' a little crazy

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you you you you you

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"Seventeen and believed in just anything Could be true, could be bad, something in between I recall all those lazy summer nights And all I knew was the time I spent with you I could easily stay, and never come home Looking out on the field like it's never been changed The past is a place that you can never return to Even though people say that this is where you belong I could easily stay, and never come home Looking out on the field like it's never been changed The past is a place that you can never return to Even though people say that this is where you belong I could always try to reach you And it's pumping through my veins And there's nothing I can do about it"

baby, baby, baby

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"Still so young & anxious to be free"

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one & two

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Ring on the left is from Target and the other ring is from Goodwill.

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"I've been lost I've been found, I've been fooling around. I've been hold, I've been told, I've been changing my mind. I've been up, I've been down, come on in, take your time. I've been low, I've been high, I'm in love with this lie."

2009-09-27T20:49:00.000-07:00

"This new season brings signs of hope"

Seven Days A Week

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This was my day outfit. Thrifted dress, had to cut it 'cause it went all the way down to my feet.

This is the pattern on the dress.

Stay Gold.

Night outfit.

Baja Fresh!

Smile like you mean it.

I'm so glad the weather is going to start changing already. It's about time! Hope everyone has a great week!

No Sleep

2009-09-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

I've been laying in bed for the past 4 hours trying to sleep. I went jogging for 20 minutes 'cause I couldn't sleep. I'm going to be jogging 3 times a week, so I won't get fat. Haha. I hope I have enough energy to work today.

Dressing Up With Nowhere To Go!

2009-09-26T01:03:00.000-07:00

I hate that vegas never has anything fun going on, and if they do have some sort of event, it's always hella fucking WHACK! Well here's what I wore tonight, to do nothing. hahaha.

thrifted top and urban tights. :)

Sorry the pictures suck, I'm too dark. hahaha
Hope everyone has a great weekend!

p.s
I'm trying to smile more in my pictures!
hehe

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I think I need a break from everything and everyone.

Let me tell you a story

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About two mexicans who came into my job right before closing time and decided to sit down and eat. I let them know five minutes before ten that we were going to close. They just stared at me. Well, after those five minutes passed, I told Octavio to tell them something and he said to let them eat. I was pissed 'cause I'm tired and his lazy ass didn't do shit at work, while I had to do everything. I'm sitting there waiting for them to be done, but my patience ran out. It was already ten minutes after ten so I told them I'm sorry but we're already closed, its ten minutes past ten and we have to close, sorry. They said are you kicking us out? I said yes and I'm sorry. They said I was being rude and we couldn't do that, I said I could kick them out 'cause we're already closed. Then they started yelling so I started yelling, and now they are going to call my manager tomorrow and complain about me. I honestly don't give a fuck if they do. I doubt ill get in trouble. I don't get paid enough to put up with this shit. I'm tired, goodnight.

RANDOM

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Hello there, Baby

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Stuff around the neighborhood

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Not Cool Man

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I can't sleep, I keep thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking about. I feel like my life is meaningless. It revolves around work. It doesn't revolve around him, or me. It revolves around making sandwiches. How lame is that? I'm 19 and my life is going nowhere. It's upsetting that my boyfriend and I live together and we hardly talk to each other. He wakes up at 5:30am to get ready for work, I don't see him until around 2 so he can take me to work. Then he goes back to work, I get off of work at 10. We go home, he goes to sleep and I stay awake. I don't like this pattern at all. I feel like we're going to grow apart, I don't want that. I don't want to work at Subway anymore, too bad I didn't finish high school. I seriously suck at life. I need to start doing something with it or I'm going to go crazy. I don't like the way my mind works. I always think about the negative things, instead of the positive things in my life. I can't really think of anything positive right now. I hope things start getting better somehow. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I'm going to try and do something.

2009-09-23T02:03:00.000-07:00

"He said you only find love once in your life
So I guess when you find it
You're gonna hold it right
You'll hold it right
It makes no sense
Cos there's no sense in it at all
We all wait around
We wait for you to get tired and fall
As your shadow it resumes in me"

Ceviche

2009-09-21T22:46:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend's mother and I made some ceviche today, it came out so good! I can seriously eat all of it. I'm addicted to it. Today was a good day.

I felt bad for them after finding this, it won't stop me from eating them though.

This makes me so happy.

Hopefully everyone has a good week, take care!

Vogue October Issue

2009-09-21T02:32:00.000-07:00

BBQ

2009-09-20T23:27:00.000-07:00

Today was my brother Raymond's birthday BBQ. It was a pretty great day, besides the part where my boyfriend was driving too fast on the freeway and hit another car! We didn't get hurt, and it wasn't a big accident, just a little scratch. So everything is fine. Besides that today was fun. My boyfriend and I baked some cookies for the BBQ and right when we got there everyone ate them, they were a hit! I also had some carne asada, chicken, white rice, some weird tuna salad, then after that smoked a blunt with my boyfriend, brother and his friends. I also gave my brother some money to buy some Millers since he turned 21 today. Here are a few pictures of my day, I hope everyone had a great weekend! I don't have to work till Tuesday, woohoo for me!

Birthday boy and his girl friend and baby!

She is sooo cute!

My mama and her husband. Everyone wanted to hold the baby.

I love my mom, she was trying to stand on her tippy toes so she could be taller then me. :)

It's kind of sad that almost all the girls there already had a baby or two! The girls were only from 17-20 years old. I guess if you haven't had a baby by now then you aren't cool. I'll wait a while before I start popping little creatures out of me! haha

:)

My friend Crystal, who I don't get to see very often. :(

Big brothers.

Can't wait to lay down and knock out with my lover.

I love my family, even though at times they can be a pain in my behind. :p
Sweeet Dreams my darlings.

I love love love love

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my days off, which are Sundays and Mondays. I always try to do something fun like go to the park or just dress up in cute outfits and make my boyfriend take pictures of me, poor guy. Anywho, here are a few pictures of my night. We didn't do much, just went to Walgreens to buy some film, then to the park, took pictures, dropped the film off at Walgreens and came back home. I really hope the pictures I took on film come out, I think there might be something wrong with my Holga :( Hope everyone had a good Saturday night!

I kept moving!

Thrifted shirt, Tights from Urban Outfitters, Buffalo Exchange shoes, American Apparel tube top and I cut some American Apparel leggings to make them shorts.

At The View, picture looks like crap.

At the park :)

I was sad because my camera didn't want to auto focus, I don't know why my shit always has to fuck up!

I like how this looks, even though it isn't focused.

:)

Watermelon & Strawberries

2009-09-19T23:02:00.000-07:00

Fruit is taking over my life, it's a good thing though.

It's Not Fair

2009-09-19T00:53:00.001-07:00

I'm not allowed to have friends.

a.k

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Source: ffffound.com

Dinner at P.F Chang's

2009-09-16T23:47:00.001-07:00

I had so much fun at my birthday dinner, I'm so blessed to have two great families that love and care about me. Here are a few pictures of everyone.

This is my mama and her husband.

My boyfriend's grandmother and grandfather, they are so nice.

yummm.

My family eating.

My boyfriend's family eating.

My birthday cake! ^_^

I was so happy, I wanted to cry.

My brother pushed my face in the cake!

My boyfriend and I tried to take a picture together and every picture we took my brother was in! hahaha

My brothers. My camera sucks!

My beautiful niece :)

My boyfriend's mother and my mama :)

This was seriously the best birthday ever.

2009-09-16T14:30:00.000-07:00

"Inside everybody's hiding something"

Happy Birthday

2009-09-15T23:16:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday dear, me
Happy birthday to meeee!!
LALALALALALA

I am now officially 19! WOOHOOO, sike. There is nothing special about turning 19. I just feel old and like I'm doing nothing with my life. hahah

My boyfriend bought me a keyboard, I can't wait till I get good at it!

Unfortunately I have to work today, but tomorrow I'm going to have my birthday dinner with my family and my boyfriend's family, can't wait!